If you'd let me do all this, I'd do alot of things different. I'd savor every bite of those pink cookies as one of those would most assuredly cause an immediate heart attack now a days. I'd eat more croutons. I'd tell my brothers that I loved them more and annoy them less. I'd work harder in dance class, princess underpants and all. Maybe I could have saved my knee if I'd done things differently in those classes. I would practice my instruments harder and never would have given any of them up. I would be a little less competitive during night games and I wouldn't mind being "it". I would never fight my mom about what to wear or how hard she was pulling my hair as she tried to comb through it. I would try to beat dad on the enthusiasm meter instead of acting like the world was coming to an end. I would cherish the nights snuggled in between mom and dad on the waterbed. I would put my allowance into savings except for the dollar I'd spend on a See's Butterscotch sucker. I would realize how good I have it and wish on a star every night to never grown up.
But if that wish came true, I wouldn't be married to Prince Charming. I wouldn't have walked in from work tonight to find a beautiful dinner on the table. I wouldn't get to giggle at how silly he is all day long and he wouldn't get to laugh at how blonde I am. I wouldn't get butterflies every time I see an incoming call from him. I wouldn't miss him so much every day that it hurts. I wouldn't get to hear him say his ultra sarcastic "OOOOOKKAAAAAYYYY." I wouldn't get the perma grin I get whenever I hear him making his momma laugh over the phone or skype. I wouldn't have anyone to take care of my car when it's having bad days. I wouldn't have anyone to lie next to at night and talk about our future, going green, and CNN's headlines.
So, whether you take me back, or you don't, it was all good and it is all good. Just living is good.