Saturday, March 12, 2011

I wish and I know

I wish I had the power to know what each person is going through as I cross their paths. Maybe they would like a hug or a protein bar from my purse. I wish I knew what to do to help.

I wish everyone in the world could have been at Aaron's funeral today. It was a perfect celebration of his life and I know that's how he would have wanted it.

I wish I could have told him that I love him before he passed away.

I wish we weren't so hard on ourselves.

I wish that the plant that I received today in honor of Aaron would stay alive forever.

I wish I had a green thumb so that it would even stay alive for a month!

I wish there were no such thing as addiction. Not to drugs, not to alcohol, not to pornography, not to diet coke, not to anything.

I wish I were better at making sure everyone knows how great they are and how much they are loved.

I wish I hadn't wasted so many hours of my life on facebook.

I wish life were fair but it's just not.

I wish the events in Japan this weekend could be reversed.

I wish peace and understanding for all those whose lives have been turned upside down.

I wish everyone could know what I know.

I know that death is not the end of our existence.

I know that the spirit within each of us continues on for eternity.

I know that I will see Aaron again.

I know that families will be together forever through Heavenly Father's plan.

I know that holding back tears gives me a headache.

I know that through Him we can return to live with Heavenly Father, our families, and Aaron.

I know that forgiveness is only possible because of Jesus Christ and the Atonement.

I know that Heavenly Father put us all down here together so that we can help each other to celebrate, help each other to mourn, help each other to overcome hard things, and help each other to return to Heavenly Father.

All of my wishing reminded me of a quote that Aaron would love because he probably has the biggest collection of Jordan shoes on the planet and he loves Michael Jordan and the Chicago Bulls.

"Some people want it to happen, some wish it would happen, others make it happen."
Michael Jordan

Aaron, you will always be missed but not for long. We will all meet again soon. All of the friends that surrounded your casket today as you were buried will someday be surrounding YOU as you catch us up on what we've missed and as you tell us of all the pranks you've pulled in Heaven. Until then, rest peacefully.


  1. Thanks for this Annie. I really can't say it any better than that.

  2. That was very touching.. I know that we all will see aaron again someday. And that he was just an amazing person and wish for things to be taken back and to be changed but god has a plan for everybody.. and I know hes in a better place with our heavenly father. We will miss you aaron.

    Lindsay morgan

  3. I so wished I could have gone to his funeral. I am happy to hear that a lot of people were there to celebrate his life. It is so great knowing that we will all meet him again. Annaleace I always love your blog posts, you just seem to be able to say what everyone else is feeling. So grateful we have the gospel to help us through these hard times.

  4. Hi A! This is Heather...Brittney's sister, and I just figured I should tell you that I love your blog! I started following a couple weeks ago, thanks to Britt and Bree, and I love your writing style and personality that shines in your posts. And in this particular post, your love for your dear friend and for the Gospel shines through. You're such a dear girl! And you make deeeelicious sweet potatoes.

  5. Anni~

    What a great post. Its amazing the beauty we find in life through death right? we have so much to be greatful for that we over look way to often. Its sad that it takes things like death to remind us. Greatful for your testimony today!